Dissappear!

Disappear from my heart,disappear from my feel.
I hated the world shamelessly,stop forcing me to kneel.
I had reasons to curse god.
You made the reasons seem so odd.
Every memory of you hurts me now,i'm dying but alive.
You taught me to live,so i'm here to survive.
Wondering why you taught me to love,to adore?
When i'd end up loving to hate myself and nothing more!
Disappear from my mind,stop injecting this painful guilt.
Feelings i said i had faded out of hands like dried silt.
And now that you're gon,i feel a lot for you.
Crazy as i am,buh i swear that i really do!
Don't know why i spoke right when there was no one to talk to.
But now i swear i really did and will always love you!
Disappear from my heart,stop hurting every beat.
Every beat's a fresh pain,each one's so discrete.
Why you ever taught me to love,when one day you had to go away.
Now i end up hating myself ever since that endless day!
And u won't be back but i'm here to stay.
I appreciate to be existing as you taught,but i barely exist without you anyway!