I pledged to be better next time and maybe i would have been.
But the world didnt remain the same n it was too late to come clean.
Life seemed barbaric and i had to live.
Knew that i was the last person i could forgive.
Tears in my eyes and the guilt was endless.
But i tried to squeeze something out of the emptiness.
I knew you weren't there but i couldn't kill my belief.
I had to hope that u heard me,you were my reason to live.
But deep within i knew you heard nothin,you weren't even there!
And i was a wimp,couldn't suicide..jus kept on being killed by my fear..
The times moved fast and it got so easier to forget you.
My demons were back and i was proud of all they used to do.
I knew you weren't there and i just didnt care.
Jus pretence in my heart when i said i wish you were here..
Had sipped in a little spur of the moment..a moment that got me lost again.
But the world wasn't the same and it wished to have me slain.
Now i weep in the dark and try to introspect.
How could i've been worth you,you were bound to have slept!
Slept until forever..
God u won't come back..evEr!!
